Psalm 116:15

Rest in peace - dear old friend - you were such a great witness to me; starting from the church nursery and continuing on. I can only imagine what a wonderful homecoming you experienced just a few days ago - as you were finally united with your Heavenly Father. Although your passing has countless others in mourning; I can't help but tearfully rejoice in the great joy you are living in now and will be for eternity.

Psalm 116 (KJV)

1I love the LORD, because he hath heard my voice and my supplications.

2Because he hath inclined his ear unto me, therefore will I call upon him as long as I live.

3The sorrows of death compassed me, and the pains of hell gat hold upon me: I found trouble and sorrow.

4Then called I upon the name of the LORD; O LORD, I beseech thee, deliver my soul.

5Gracious is the LORD, and righteous; yea, our God is merciful.

6The LORD preserveth the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me.

7Return unto thy rest, O my soul; for the LORD hath dealt bountifully with thee.

8For thou hast delivered my soul from death, mine eyes from tears, and my feet from falling.

9I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living.

10I believed, therefore have I spoken: I was greatly afflicted:

11I said in my haste, All men are liars.

12What shall I render unto the LORD for all his benefits toward me?

13I will take the cup of salvation, and call upon the name of the LORD.

14I will pay my vows unto the LORD now in the presence of all his people.

15Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints.

16O LORD, truly I am thy servant; I am thy servant, and the son of thine handmaid: thou hast loosed my bonds.

17I will offer to thee the sacrifice of thanksgiving, and will call upon the name of the LORD.

18I will pay my vows unto the LORD now in the presence of all his people.

19In the courts of the LORD's house, in the midst of thee, O Jerusalem. Praise ye the LORD.

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Going Home
by Sara Groves

I’ve been feeling kind of restless
I’ve been feeling out of place
I can hear a distant singing
A song that I can’t write
And it echoes of what I’m always trying to say

There’s a feeling I can’t capture
It’s always just a prayer away
I want to know the ending
Things hoped for but not seen
But I guess that’s the point of hoping anyway

Going home, I’ll meet you at the table
Going home, I’ll meet you in the air
And you are never too young to think about it
Oh, I cannot wait to be home

I’m confined by my senses
To really know what you are like
You are more than I can fathom
And more than I can guess
And more than I can see with you in sight

But I have felt you with my spirit
I have felt you fill this room
And this is just an invitation
Just a sample of the whole
And I cannot wait to be going home

Going home, I’ll meet you at the table
Going home, I’ll meet you in the air
And you are never too young to think about it
Oh, I cannot wait to be going, to be going home

Face to face, how can it be
Face to face, how can it be
Face to face, how can it be

Cause this is just an invitation
Just a sample of the whole
And I cannot wait to be going home

***As of 8/27/08, you can hear this song on my MySpace page***

26.2 baby, 26.2!!!

So sorry I haven't written sooner. There are a number of factors as to why I haven't written yet. One of which was that I didn't want my fellow Team In Training runners (especially the first time marathoners) to read my post and get nervous! Another is that I think I've been in disbelief that I actually did it! Anyway, I digress, here is how it went down:

I landed in San Francisco on Friday afternoon, and really couldn't believe it was actually happening. What in the world had I gotten myself into?!? I was REALLY going to run 26.2 miles??? Really. Yeah, right. I gotta say that it was such a strange feeling. Plus the excitement of being somewhere I'd never been. Very surreal.

We were really lucky with the weather, San Francisco is such a beautiful city, and it was pretty much sunny the whole time. I didn't get to see the famous fog, but what I did see totally made up for it.

My first day (Friday), was spent getting my packet, which included my race bib, and checking out the Expo. Free Ghiradelli chocolate samples, yum yum. There were stations for massages and manicures (it was the Nike WOMEN'S Marathon, after all), but the lines were too long, I didn't want to wait. So I got my free postcards, then made my way to Nike Town (I was hanging out with Robin, Tina, Asi, and others by the way).

Won't you take me to... NIKE TOWN! aka starting line.

...where I spent way too much money! It was all Nike Marathon stuff, so I felt justified. But still... I didn't spend any more money after that, well besides food. I was REALLY good about that!

The next day, I went with a small group on what I thought would be a short walk to Fisherman's Wharf. WRONG! Turns out we followed the wrong people. Still, it was a fun walk, we ended up walking through Chinatown on the way back to the hotel... but boy were my feets HURTING! Not the best idea, on the day before a marathon. (I can say that it was the first real Chinatown I'd ever been too, veryyyy interesting). One of the highlights of the walk was seeing the 'performance art' pieces in a park. Basically, a bunch of people were dressed as super heros, and they seemed to be playing a game against what were possibly 'ninja's.' Innnneresting. Oh yeah, and seeing the Pacific Ocean, Golden Gate Bridge, Transamerica Building, Alcatrez (sp?), and Coit Tower (sadly, my only San Francisco knowledge comes from 'So I Married An Axe Murderer' references---great movie, check it out!) "Coit Tower, San Andreas Fault!"

Farmers Market

Me! Razorback Girls Rock! Arkansas beat Ole Miss that day!!!

Fisherman's Wharf

Coit Tower

"Performance Art"

Pretty church

Transamerica Building

See my name???

I was able to relax in my room after that, and had a great afternoon, see my other blog: http://www.chasingfireworks.blogspot.com/ if you want to read more about that.

So that night was the Pasta Party, and what a great night! There were about 8,500 people there, and we learned that $8.5 million was raised for The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society in this race alone. So Cool! Joan Benoit Samuelson, who was the first woman to win a gold medal in the Olympic marathon (literally the first ever to win, the first time they had a women's marathon event), gave an inspirational speech. Oh yeah, and some guy named the Penguin (a sportswriter) was the emcee, he kept it light and funny.


Then the REAL inspirational speech came. A woman who had been diagnosed with Stage III non-Hodgkins Lymphoma stood up to speak. I won't go into everything, but you can check out her blog here: http://www.ichoosehope.com/. She was amazing. I don't think there was a dry eye in the house.

Entrance to Pasta Party

Joan Benoit Samuelson

So I went back to my hotel, and got much needed sleep. The race started at 7 am, and we were all meeting at 5:30 in the lobby of our hotel. Whoa!!! That was early, but I got right up. Got dressed and went down to go out with the team. It was still dark, and FREEZING (mostly from the wind, I think). I was wearing my shorts, race singlet, and a trash bag to keep me warm! They had music playing, and were really pumping up the crowd. Let me tell you, if that doesn't get your adrenaline pumping, I don't know what will!

Front of race day singlet

Back of race day singlet, with all my donors names...

... and the rest of em. You are all on there, some you can't see, because they are on the side!

Starting line up ahead... not so great pic...

Golden Gate Bridge

The 'little' hill

Pretty views.....

Run Girls Run!!!

The race started out great, everyone was in such a good mood (by the way, on one account, there were about 23,000 women, and 900 men in the race). I got hot in my 'jacket,' and took it off around mile 2 or 3. The sun was shining, and it was a beautiful day! We passed a band that was playing No Doubt's 'Sunday Morning,' and I sang along as best as I could while running!

Things were great! We got to the dreaded mile 6 (next to the Presidio), and whoa!!!!! This was a hill that went straight up 350 ft. for one mile. Yikes! Then we had rolling hills for about 4 miles after that one. Let's just say we walked all of them. Didn't want to wear ourselves out (by the way, I ran with my friend Donna, who I had trained with, she was great!). Funny how going downhill, we would actually run, because it was easier to do that than to walk, the hills were so steep! But we were rewarded with amazing views of the Pacific Ocean and the Golden Gate Bridge. I will never forget coming down that last hill and seeing the amazing ocean, the waves crashing onto the beach. Just... wow.

This is a little before the hill, wish I would have gotten a picture of it, you could see it from a mile away! Honestly, I just didn't want to look at it!

The Presidio, or part of it, or right beside it, I'm not sure...

And down the last BIG hill, with the great view of the ocean!
There's Donna, to the left.

There it is again, and this is the last picture I took that day. I have a slide show of the professional pics on the post prior to this one, check it out!

It was a little after that when the full and half marathoners split off. We ran into Golden Gate Park. And, as usual, around mile 13 to 14 my feet starting hurting. But I was good, I ran through it, and had Donna to help me go on. We got to the highway, and the sun was beating down. We got ahead of the pace guy, so felt that we were good to go. Mile 18.5 was ahead, and we had to make it there in a certain time, or they would turn us back. One of my coaches was there, saying, 'you have two minutes, you can make it.' We were in front of the pace guy, so I wasn't too worried. Well... we got right up to the place, and they turned us back! Oh gosh, how awful was that?!? As we started to head towards the finish line, our pacer ran right through the people blocking the road. Donna changed her mind and went after him, and I did too! Ran right through those people...

Now, I will say this is when it got reallllly hard. How discouraging was that??? I kept thinking, I messed up, I'm not going to finish in time. Donna was there, and saying that we were on pace, but I just couldn't help it. I started crying. I would cry in spurts. And we had to go around this (seemingly) huge lake. I really thought I couldn't make it. None of my tricks worked on me. Who cares about Matt Jones?!? (The former Razorback I said I would think of, as in 'if he can play and win a 7-overtime game against Ole Miss- check it out: http://media.www.thedmonline.com/media/storage/paper876/news/2003/10/24/UndefinedSection/Ncaas.Longest.Game.Filled.With.Lasting.Scenes-1587385.shtml which lasted 4 hours and 46 minutes, then I could run/walk this dang thing in 6 ). None of the songs that seemingly effortlessly came to my mind during my solo 20-mile walk worked for me that day. Nothing did. I was completely and totally in denial that I could do this. I guess you could say I ran out of faith in myself.

Anyway, it got to where my legs hurt soooo bad, I couldn't run any more. Donna stayed with me probably longer than she should have, and made sure I had a coach with me when she got her final burst of energy to finish the race running. I was so grateful for her, and for Coach Craig. I just kept crying in spurts, which oddly made me feel better. But I literally felt as though I wouldn't make it, that my legs would give out before the finish, that I would just fall down. Craig stayed with me, holding my arm, let me squeeze his hand... up until the finish. Right up until about 20 or 30 feet. Then I saw my DC coaches, Mark and Rich. They held my hands, told me how awesome I was (and I didn't feel it, believe me), and I made it across by myself.

It took me 6 hours 38 minutes 50 seconds. That works out to a 15 minute/mile pace, which is what I trained at. Obviously I would have liked to finish sooner, but I'm still proud of myself. I have the Tiffany necklace (handed to me a the finish line by a guy in a tux... in that nice blue Tiffany box), finisher t-shirt and official photos to prove it!

So fast forward to a week and a day later. I was really sore for two days, but on the third day... I was like a different person! No more pain. And I can tell you that what I felt that day was probably the worst pain I've ever felt. Oh my gosh.

Will I ever run a marathon again? Hmmmm, not sure. If I do, I want to be in better shape. The good thing is that I know when I hit that breaking point, and that before I hit that wall, I had a great race. Mentally... it was such a hard thing. Now I know what to expect. Still haven't answered that first question, have I? Well, for sure I would go back and do the half. Maybe work myself up to another full. And doing it with Team In Training... that just makes it more amazing. I get to help people out by fundraising for a worty, accomplish something as great as FINISHING A MARATHON, and meet great people in the process!

I want to thank each and every one of you for your support. I REALLY couldn't have done it without y'all!


Much love and blessings,
Mandi

P.S. I will say that having so many people cheering me on was so helpful! So much so that I made it a point to meet up with the TNT cheer station at yesterday's Marine Corp Marathon, so I could cheer my running buddies (and everyone else) on. Such a fun and great thing to do!

Check out my Slide Show!

I'm San Francisco Bound!

Tomorrow morning I leave for San Francisco! I can't believe the marathon is here. I have been going from extremely nervous to extremely excited.... Ahhh! ;)

You will have a full report next week. I have a few tricks up my sleeve, for when the race seems long and unbearable. One thing I've done is write ALL of my donors names on the back of my race day singlet (shirt). That's right, I had room for all of you, and of course my honored teammates. So, literally, y'all will be 'on my back,' throughout the race, reminding me of the generousity you displayed in donating in my name. I have other tricks, but will let you know if they work out next week. Here's a hint for one: I will be thinking about a former Razorback football player... and not just because he's SOOO good-looking!

Wish me luck!!!

Blessings,

Mandi

P.S. I purchased new running shoes, Asics-with more cushioning. They look a little something like this, saaweet!

20 Miles... all by myse-e-elf....

Hi gang! (warning, this one is kinda long).

Okay, so last time I mentioned that I have been sick, and unable to run. I missed both the 16 and 18-milers, and as of last Wednesday it had been almost 3 WEEKS since I had run a step.

And then... the 20-miler. Yes, it was looming large in front of me. The Team ran it last Saturday. I was going to attempt it, but chickened out Friday night. I had only done 3 miles last Thursday, in 3 WEEKS. My legs felt like spaghetti noodles, all limp and well... useless.

So I woke up Saturday morning, and decided to go for a 4-mile walk. I figured it would help me (possibly just mentally) to have done something with my leg muscles. Well, let's just say by the time I made it home, I had a sinus headace that 3 Aleve wouldn't put a dent in.

So I was stressed. Feeling as though I couldn't do this, and that was so depressing! Because how in the world could I run 26.2 miles without having run close to if before the race? I knew that yesterday (Sunday) was the last day possible for me to do it. This coming Saturday would be too late, you're not supposed to run such a long distance so close to the actual race day.

So I made a decision. I would wake up whenever I wanted Sunday (that meant no alarm clock), and if I felt fine, I would give it a try. I had already figured out a 10-mile course that I could do twice... yikes!

And wouldn't you know it, I lost my sports watch?!? I swear, it really was a comedy of errors, the hours leading up to my 20-miler.

I awoke Sunday morning feeling great, and just decided to go for it. I could always turn around and come home if I started feeling bad, I rationalized to myself. I took off with my fuel belt, full of Gatorade, shot blocks, my inhaler, some cash (for some reason, I had an overabundance of one-dollar bills, okay 8 of em), and my house key tied onto my shoe. Daunting? You betcha.

So I started out, and about 5 miles in decided to change my course. I decided to the do a 12-miler, then tack on 8-miles at the end (that would be approximately 2 laps of the Mall).

And oh my gosh, I did it! Since I didn't have my watch, I couldn't do intervals, but I ran in spurts. Luckily the weather was perfect, I think the high was 72, and it was breezy. I planned it to where I could run the last half on the Mall, because they sell water and Gatorade all over the place, for those thirsty, dehydrated tourists. Which was the reason I carried the cash, by the way, were you thinking it was cab money???

Wow, what a feeling, I really still am in shock that I did it... and without an iPod! (Yes, I'm a freak of nature, and can walk/run for 20 miles without music, sooo not easily bored!).

I talked to one of the coaches today, because he e-mailed me, asking me to call him. I told him I did it, and he was absolutely floored. He had been concerned about me, and even thought about switching me to the half-marathon (which is the same day/time as the full Nike Women's), but since I've done this, then he thinks I'm good to go! (I can't say that it's not tempting to cut back, but I won't! I've been planning all along to do the full, and so that's what I'm gonna do!).

And how, you may ask, did I not just simply die of boredom! I planned out little rewards for myself. On the way back from Haines Point (this is approximately 6-7 miles in) I ran the Tidal Basin. I love it down there, so that was my first treat. When I got back on the Mall, I had to do the loop twice. I planned on my last trip around the Washington Monument to actually go up and touch it, and I stretched there, that was my second treat. Also, I told myself that on my last loop, I would run through the Smithsonian Castle Garden. It's so pretty, and smells so wonderful. So that was my last treat.

By the time I made it in front of the National Air and Space Museum (for the last time), I was congratulating myself for not having lost my mind! That was about 1-mile from my house. A guy was playing the flute, and I decided to give him my last dollar. He said 'you look ready for a jog, with your belt on.' I replied, 'just finishing up 20 miles, almost done!' as I held up 7 fingers. So... maybe I wasn't all there, but at least I remember it!

The Mall was the perfect place for me to do it, because there were tourists everywhere, there was a band playing (for some reason I don't know) by the Washington Monument, and there was the MS Walk finish line in front of the Capitol, and they were playing fun music. Although I will say, please, if you are a singer, do NOT butcher U2. I don't care how you sing, but if you can't do Bono justice, please... just.don't.do.it.

Anyway, I'm getting off topic. People were everywhere, no telling how many languages I heard, I met a photographer, and just had a great time. Now, will I ever voluntarily run/walk 20-miles all by myself ever again? Highly doubtful! But I'm soo glad I did it. It just proves that I have the determination it takes to do this. That my legs, feet, lungs and mostly importantly mind can do this. Such a great feeling. And I'm not even that sore! Okay, I am, but not near as bad as I anticipated!

That's my update. Hope everyone is having a great day!

Blessings,
Mandi

You take the good, you take the bad...

Hi all!

So, as I'm sure you've all been waiting anxiously for my "I ran 18 miles and feel GREAT" blog. Well, it didn't happen. I have been really sick for about a week, went to the doctor yesterday, and I have a sinus infection.

I do want you to know that I consulted some of my coaches before skipping the 18-miler. They suggested I not do it. I was so sad/mad, I was crying on the phone! But I also know myself, and I would have just gotten more sick...

So.... here is where I stand now. Apparently you shouldn't run if you have a fever higher than 99, which I have had a few times this past week. Also, if you try to run with a sinus infection, it will only make it worse, and could lead to pneumonia or (worse case scenerio) respiratory failure. These are possible even without a fever. I have started a 10 day treatment of antibiotics. Hopefully I can get back on track soon!!!

Here's an article from Runner's World, if you are interested: http://www.runnersworld.com/article/0,7120,s6-241-286--9082-0,00.html

Anyway, when I have good and bad news, I like to go with the bad news first. Because then the good news can cheer the hearer up!

The good news is that I only have $299 to go! I have had some recent donations, and raised $305 at the group fundraiser this past Tuesday night! Woo hoo! So that is great, all that money is going to an AMAZING cause, and I don't have to stress out about raising so much!

Yippee Skippy!

Anyway, that is all. I want everyone to know that I'm working really hard at getting better, resting up as much as possible. I've missed 1.5 days of work, and slept pretty much all the time. I am determined to do this... it's just another minor setback. 20-miler, here I come!

Blessings,
Mandi

780 and 18... oh yeah and 195!

Numbers numbers numbers... You're probably asking yourself, 'why is Mandi throwing these numbers at me?' Well, they actually mean something, patience patience!


780- I need to raise this much more to meet my fundraising goal. That means, that yes (with your help), I've raised $3,020! Wow, lots of money, and it's all going to such a great cause!

18- Yikes, this one... yikes! That is how many miles I will be running this Saturday. Yikes yikes double yikes. Will be writing about that next week...

and 195- That is the total amount of training miles I have ran since May 17th! I've really come a long way. The first 3 mile run we had... I was so nervous! Now, 12 miles... ha, nothing! Okay, not nothing, but at least I'm not nervous any more!

Anyway, that is all for today.

Have a blessed day,
Mandi